You can’t give God deadlines. - St. Pio
The summer has come and gone. I was really looking forward to it – with Sofia, Nhatz and myself spending time with the two boys off from school. I’d get the boys to do some chores, watch them take swimming lessons and insert a teeny bit of structured learning I would cleverly disguise as fun.
I used to pray for Sofia’s complete and speedy recovery. Clearly, speedy isn’t part of the plan. When Nhatz’s 2-month vacation leave was about to end I braced myself, thinking God would make the events fall into place, the tension of going through the pulmonary banding operation included, and then things would be back to normal as Nhatz went back to work. That passed and we were still waiting for Godot. The rainy season started. Maybe she’ll be home the feast of the Ascension? Nope. I had silly thoughts as my grandfather’s death anniversary approached. Then Yoachim went back to school. Then Tyler. And my maternity leave ended.
Can speedy be part of the remainder of the plan? I hope so. I now pray for complete healing, for Sofia to come home to us a healthy, happy and strong baby girl, and for her to live a full life with Nhatz, Yoachim, Tyler and myself in the service of the Lord. For amidst all this God has shown us that the world is full of love. Yesterday Sofia got a beautiful card from some of my projectmates in Minnesota. It said there was a circle of love – and she was in the middle of it. I believe that. People around the world are praying for Sofia. Friends are saying they have their kids praying for Sofia. Even people we don’t know say they are praying for Sofia.
Her bleeding from the colon has recurred, we need some intervention. I feel crushed knowing she’ll have another procedure (that I don’t want to go into yet), but it still isn’t the one that will get her home. Please pray with us that her path to get home with us becomes a straighter path. We have meandered too much.